Hello to our personal guardian angel

our story started the day before thanksgiving (11/21) when i started spotting early in the morning, thinking i am just getting my monthly period, i continued on my daily routine of life...yet my period never came..and my spotting continued the whole day...i told eric about it and told me that we should take a home pregnancy test since there is a big change that we could be pregnant...

thanksgiving morning...the day that changed our life..... after 3 minutes of waiting 2 pink line appeared in our pregnancy test.... wow... during that time we felt complete... since my birthday is coming up in about a week or so, we decided not to tell anyone until my birthday... during those time eric and i can't hold our happiness. we started envisioning what our baby would be..the gender, names, and way we want to raise our child, and the one that stressd eric is that we really need to get our house before the baby comes out...

"this is it na talaga" picture

and since i am bearly into my normal menstrual cycle..we decided to take another pregnancy test just to be sure if the first test is accurate...and so just the way we said it..."this is it na talaga" because 3 out of 3 different brands of pregnancy test gave us a positive readings!!!

a month before my birthday eric asked me what i want to do on my special day... he ask me if i want to throw a party, and since we just got married last may, i decided i don't want to go through another stress of planning a party for this year. then eric asked me to choose between a romantic dinner or a day of my choice theme park here in LA...of course, since i am a roller coaster fanatic..i chose theme park and since i haven't been to knotts berry farm, i decided to just celebrate my birthday there...but when we found out about our status of being pregnant..our plans of roller coaster shifted to just having a family dinner with my in-laws so just that we can tell them the good news!! (first grandchild kasi eh!!)

all through out this time all my pregnancy symptoms were nausea in the morning, but no vomitting..super sleepiness and fatigue feeling in my part and mostly the heavy, sore and painful breast

December 1 around 3:00am i was awaken with the feeling full bladder, and right when i got up blood started gushing out of me... i woke up eric and told me to bring me to the ER, because i know that time... i am losing my baby.

so there we are in the seeking medical attention..during this time i was inconsolable. i was begging God to spare my baby's life and to make my bleeding stop. they did some test and of all the words that the doctors told us..here's the only thing that i remember "since your still too early in your pregnancy (5 1/2 weeks)..there is nothing we can do to stop you from miscarriaging right now"

i saw in everybody's eyes how devastated they are that time when they found out that i lost my baby..so i collected all the strength left in me and still manage to blow my birthday candles just to lighten up the sadness in the room

my bitter-sweet 26th birthday celebration

so those who greeted me during my birthday thank you and your loved me (us) strong during this sad part of our life